Baby, you made me say

I have never said it before.
Not about a guy.
Never about someone like you.

It makes me want to scream,
the way you weasel your way
into my head.

But still, when i saw you
in that picture
smirking at me,

with my friends standing behind me,
giving you the one through ten,
I just opened my mouth

and said it.

"I just... I just love him."

Then, many things at once;
the double gasp,
the eyes widenning.

"You love him?" She asked
I gaped, trying to find reasons
for why I said it.

I was as shocked as they.
Allie, the one who never cared about anything.
Allie, the girl who breaks boys hearts.

Allie, who doesn't believe in love...
just said,
that she loved him.

I couldn't believe that
I allowed the words to pass my lips,
like poison that i kept inside,

trying to hide it,
now has come out into the open
free to affect others outside myself.

I am scared. For you, at first.
Now, it's me. i have no clue
what the hell I am doing.

But...
apparently,


I love you.

so maybe everything will be okay.