I am The Girl

You see, I am the girl,
who you weren't supposed to meet
and I am the girl,
with the ever cold feet.
Freezing actually.

You know, I am the girl,
who's life lacked love for the sake of it
and I am the girl,
thought she'd have to live and fake it.
Like plastic.

You notice, I am the girl
who's face is always in a blush
and I am the girl,
who's life is always in a rush.
Scared of slow.

But I am the girl,
who's heart you pressed "open"
and I am the girl,
whom you succeeded to rope in,
I'm your girl. 

:)

Some Things You Never Know

I ask myself why,
the lives we live now
are dictated by,
the when and the how.
I can not look at you,
when you talk to me
because you see right through,
the eyes that you see.
But I will not ever stand
and let you rip down,
the happiness and
smiles I've found.
But I'm sad to say,
the unhappy reality is,
you stand in the way
when I'm writing this.

You make ME so MAD

I try.
I try so hard!
OK, well, maybe not so hard.

Well, hey now,
who are you to point fingers
at ME?

Look buddy,
sure I like you,
but let's not confuse my liking you

with an obsession, okay?
I'm just a little crazy, that's all.
I swear.

Trust me, you'd rather have a crazy girlfriend
than an obsessive one.
Whoa there, not that I want to be your girlfriend...

Jeez, why do you always jump
to conclusions??
That's another thing,

you think the world revolves around YOU!
Well, I have a friggen' news flash for you,
it DOESN'T.

Sometimes, I'm pretty sure
that you can read my mind.
So if you could stop looking at me

like that
yeah, like that
I would truly appreciate it.

How would you like to be analyzed
all the time? Hmm?
How would you freakin' like it?

Just because you
can read me like
i have some telepropter where my eyes should be,

doesn't mean you have to do it
all the time.
So, got that?

What? You disagree?
NO I don't love you!
I don't even like you!

You ANNOY me!
What? I'm not contradicting myself!
Don't trip.

And yes, I just said
"don't trip".
And yeah, I'm white, I know.

GET OVER IT.
Jeez, you annoy me.
What? What was that you said?

Would I please go to the dance
with you?
...


why yes.

Blush

Why do I even put it on?
It's not like I need it,
when I'm with
you.

*Smiles and looks away*

Pleased to Meet You

The words fell out
had no control
the nest falls down
the lost eggs roll.

But I'm still falling
right through the ground
can't scream or cry
can't make a sound.

So I stay silent,
plummeting through
center of the earth,
'til I collide with you.

Oh Boy.

The tears roll,
the face gets red,
the heart thunders
inside my head.

This is not me,
it's in my mind,
what i wish to do.
Pride isn't kind.

With an apple heart,
and sticks for ribs,
stick me with a knife
blood never fibs.

Baby, you made me say

I have never said it before.
Not about a guy.
Never about someone like you.

It makes me want to scream,
the way you weasel your way
into my head.

But still, when i saw you
in that picture
smirking at me,

with my friends standing behind me,
giving you the one through ten,
I just opened my mouth

and said it.

"I just... I just love him."

Then, many things at once;
the double gasp,
the eyes widenning.

"You love him?" She asked
I gaped, trying to find reasons
for why I said it.

I was as shocked as they.
Allie, the one who never cared about anything.
Allie, the girl who breaks boys hearts.

Allie, who doesn't believe in love...
just said,
that she loved him.

I couldn't believe that
I allowed the words to pass my lips,
like poison that i kept inside,

trying to hide it,
now has come out into the open
free to affect others outside myself.

I am scared. For you, at first.
Now, it's me. i have no clue
what the hell I am doing.

But...
apparently,


I love you.

so maybe everything will be okay.